my thoughts

he has his flaws..i have my flaws..

i know he always annoys me, he always hurts my feelings, he always makes me angry...

but even when he always does all that, he's that person who will always put a smile on my face..

he never fails to make me smile and never fails to make me laugh out loud eventhough he always makes me cry... ;p

yes! we always fight..we always argue..we can't agree on most stuff..

but, i find that all this are what keeping us still together and keeping our relationship stronger each day...

even if he has hurt me a lot, but he tries to make me happy after we have a small or massive fight...

he tries to be the perfect boyfriend that one could have ever asked for...

he tolerates with my annoying attitude, my temperamental moments, my PMS...

he has been tolerating with all my nonsense for the past 1 year and 4 months we've been together...

what more can i ask from him? 

and here u are saying that he doesn't deserve me just becoz of what he sed and what he did that annoys the hell outta u and ur bf can't get along with him? how sure r u that he doesn't deserve me?

have u ever thought that maybe i am the one who don't deserve him?

coz i can never imagine to have someone other than him that can tolerate with all my nonsense like how he does...n i choose to love him n be with him..

u only see the negative side of him...u seldom see his positive side..still, u have no rights to judge him..

eventhough we always fought but we succeed in protecting and keeping our relationship till today..n moreover it's a long distance relationship...and i'm proud of that..and i'm proud of him..

and i myself always makes him angry, always annoy him, always scold him for no apparent reason, always hurt his feelings with my harsh words and stuff..

maybe this is what we call as opposite attract...

dalam dunia nie, kita xkan dapat apa yang kita nak setiap kali..ada time kita akan dapat apa yg kita hajatkan dan ada time yang kita akan dapat apa yang kita xnk..so, it's up to us to make the best out of everything that we have..tak semestinya apa yang kita nak tue adalah yang terbaik untuk kita...sebab kadang2 apa yang kita xnk tue mungkin adalah yang terbaik tuk kita..kita boleh tulis satu list panjang ciri2 lelaki yang kita nak, tapi kita  xkan dapat lelaki yang memenuhi setiap ciri2 tersebut...setiap orang ada kelebihan dan kelemahan masing2..kita kena terima mereka dengan seadanya..no one is perfect except ALLAH..everything happens for a reason... :)

judgements

in real life, people juz love judging everyone without even seeing themselves first in front of the mirror...

i guess it's just the nature of life where people can be so judgemental...

well, i think everyone is like that including me...

u can keep on denying that u're not a judgemental person, but once u start to talk about a person, u tend to judge that person without u even noticing it...

u can call it as gossiping, or mengumpat or whatsoever...

but the same thing that connects to all this are judgements that are being made..

"eh, he's not good for her" "eh, look at her dress! how ugly it is!" "she's a fashion victim" "they're not meant for each other" "she's fat" "she's ugly" bla bla bla...

do u find these sentence familiar? i bet u must have said it even for once..coz i admit i do..

how sure r u that he's not good for her?

how do u know that dress is ugly? don't u think others can even say the same thing bout u?

how sure r u that u're not a fashion victim even if u follow the newest fashion trend?

how can u tell that the couple are not meant for each other?

so, what if she's fat? so, what if she's ugly?

who are u to say those things? have u been in their shoe for a day that u've given urself the right to judge? do u know the reason why they're like that?

yes! u only see what's going on on the outside but u don't have a single clue what's going on on the inside..

there are reasons behind everything that happens in life..

so, no matter who u are as long as u're a human u have no rights to judge others unless u were God..

this is just a simple reminder to myself and others..if u feel offended by what i wrote then i'm sorry..juz expressing my feelings here.. :)

a small gift from bandung to u, love! ♥

hope u'll love the gifts that i send to u... 

p/s: I LOVE YOU ANDI

breaking dawn part 1

breaking dawn part 1 was abso-effin-lute-ly awesome!!

my heart melted throughout the movie..

both edward n jacob was sooo sweet...

can't wait for part 2... 

p/s: migraine please go away...u're hurting my head n brain... :'(

today, tomorrow and the day after...

specially for you! ♥

for my BFF Nabihah Radzi...

I LOVE HER SO MUCH!

Regret

i'm sorry but i still can't accept the things u did to me..
all this while i've been patience with u..
but u've push the patience button too much till it's not working anymore..
u've tested my patience till it's over the limit...
before this i might juz forgive n forget n juz don't care whatever u do that hurts my feelings...
but now, there's no more ooh so kind sarah, ooh so good sarah, no more sarah who pity on ppl easily n no more caring sarah..
i'm sorry for not talking to u but i juz can't stand looking at ur face..
bila pandang muka kau je aku rasa menyampah giler..dengar suara lagi lar..rasa nk bernanah telinga aku nie..
yer,, x baik n berdosa x tegur sesama islam lepas 3 hari...but my heart still hurts..
aku dh tawar hati dah nk berbaik ngan kau..
bila wat baik jer kau buat taik ngan aku...
everyone has warned me bout u but i juz didn't care coz i tot maybe they was wrong...
but i think i have made the biggest mistake ever to accept u as my friend n got close to u..
i seriously regret the choice that i chose...
i regret knowing u...

what's on my mind?

i'm done.

i'm done with your bulls**ts....
i'm done being your servant...
i'm done tolerating with your mood swings...
i'm done tolerating with your annoying attitude...
u can keep on being mean to me...
u can keep on treating me like i'm ur servant...
u can keep on being selfish n self-centered...
u can keep on hating all my closest friends...
coz i'll juz distance myself away from u...
i'll juz stop caring bout u...
i'll juz stop being so nice to u...
i'll juz watch u hurt by ur own stupidity...
i'll juz watch u hurt by ur own stupid jealousy...
one thing for sure, u can never be my bestfriend...
u can never replace my bff...
u can never have a friendship with me like how i have with my bff...
u can never get close to me like how my close friends are to me...
u can never own me coz i'm not an object to be own by anybody...
u need to learn n discover what is the meaning of friendship...
u need to know that bestfriends are not made by us, it just happen..
u need to understand that to make friends u need to be urself and appreciate others..
u need to understand that u cannot treat your friends like your servants n take them for granted..
if u wanna have true friends around u, u need to see urself in the mirror and ask urself first whether r u a good friend to others...

food for thought

no matter how hard things are for you, just put on your biggest smile and see things from a different kind of view...

appreciate the smallest details in life that we always don't care to see and appreciate how meaningful life is despite all the negative energy that are always there to bring us down...

always keep our minds with positive thinking and hopefully our day is filled with happiness, laughter n joy... :)

my thoughts

received a message from my friend in fb...she sed that there is this one guy ckp kat dia yang his taste is for girls that is super skinny, who is pretty or to be specific girls who has flawless skin...ala ala kulit baby yg xde jerawat or gerutu2...and yang macam muka ala ala pan asian tue...muka2 mcm tue kan lawa n perfect...n when i read her msg n i was like WTF!!!!! asal lelaki suka letak mindset yg kalau nk cari gf kena cari yang lawa2, yg kurus, yg body mantap, yg aset pun mantap...kiranya complete package lar dari head to toe...abis tue ppuan2 yg x complete package dr head to toe tue x deserve to be happy ke? x deserve to be love by someone ke? korang nak cari yang perfect2 tuk jadikan gf korang, tp korang tue perfect sangat ke? korang leh jamin ke yg korang leh jadi bf yg terbaik tuk gf korang?n korang yakin ke yg diorang tue boleh jadi gf yang baik tuk korang? memang ar bangga ramai orang akan puji and usha2 awek korang yg hot n sexy n lawa tue...is that what u defined love? is it by the satisfaction that people adore ur gf n envy u for having a pretty gf gives u the meaning of real love? if that is what u guys r thinking then sorry to say i disrespect u...to find real love u don't look at the face..u look at the heart and how that person behave and carry him/her self in public...saya x cakap semua perempuan cantik tue jahat n perempuan yg x cantik tue baik...semua orang ada kelebihan dan kekurangan masing2...yg hati keras, xde perasaan n kejam n jahat tue bukan dia nk jadi mcm tue tp ada reason kenapa dia jadi mcm tue...everyone has their own past n experience that turn them into who they r now...so, x kesah lar orang tue cantik ke buruk ke kurus ke gemuk ke yang penting hati orang tue...nie bila orang tue gemuk ke buruk ke, mulut tue laser giler pakai cakap jer apa yg rasa nak cakap..x fikir langsung ati n perasaan orang tue..yes! memang orang tue akan senyum n gelak je...terima je aper yg dilemparkan pada dia..tp tau x apa yg dia rasa kat dalam? n'tah2 luar je senyum tp kat dalam menangis, marah, bengang..tambah2 kalau ati perempuan...ati perempuan nie sensitive dier dua kali ganda dr lelaki...x kisah lar betapa ganasnyer kat luar tp dekat dalam diri dia, dia still seorang perempuan..we shud appreciate others n accept them for who they are...the world will be a better place if there are no discrimination among us...well, this is juz my opinion..kalau tersalah n tersinggung perasaan korang baik yg laki or ppuan, i'm sorry...n i admit that i'm not perfect either...

i'm not perfect

i'm not a perfect girl...
i don't have a thin n skinny body like all your ex's n other girls...
i don't have a pretty n flawless face like all your ex's n other girls...
i don't have the package that every guy looks for in a girl...
but i do have a heart that can love you sincerely n truthfully...
i know that everyone must be cursing n thinking that u're crazy to be with a girl like me...
i know that everyone especially your friends are saying that u're blind to be going out with a girl like me...
i bet they must have wish that u broke off with me n go out with someone much better n prettier n have the complete package...
thank you for still wanting to be with me even everyone is laughing at you...
thank you for loving me and accepting me for who i am...
there is only one thing that i want from u n that is to take care of my heart...
my heart is too fragile now because it has been hurt many times...
there's too much scars on it n i don't think i can accept anymore scars...
because the old scars still hurts badly but i'll juz hide all the pain behind every smile that i can possibly put on my face...
once again, thank you for still loving me despite every ups and downs that we've gone through for the past 1 year and a month of our relationship...

PMS....stay away... =.='

i hate it when my so called 'bestfriend' comes and visit me...

when that time comes, i'll have my major mood swings...

even the slightest thing can make my mood from ok to massive lava explode... =.='

that's y i rather isolate myself from people so that they won't get any unnecessary scolding from me...

and during this time, that i'll get major or massive stomachache, backache that i feel like taking them off for awhile until my so called 'bestfriend' leaves...

i'm in sooo much pain while typing this...

miss my mummy rubbing my tummy when i'm in pain... :(

p/s: isn't this cat cute? hehehe... :D

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

to my dearest mum,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

if i was given a choice to pick the best mum in the world to be my mum, I'd still pick you...

you brought me into this world n teach me everything that i need to learn to be who i am today...

i wouldn't be what i am today if it was not because of you..

i know i've hurt u lots of times and we do fight a lot... 

but deep down inside my heart i love you more than anything else in this world...

and i'm sorry for all the wrongs that i've done that hurts you... 

you are my mum, my bestfriend...

you never failed to be there for me whenever i'm down...

you gave me strength to deal with this cruel world when i was about to give up...

thank you mama for being so patience with me...

thank you for everything... :)

i would never trade u for anything else in this world...

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MAMA!

p/s: have fun celebrating mother's day in sydney... :) 

Hundreds of dewdrops to greet the dawn,

Hundreds of bees in the purple clover,
Hundreds of butterflies on the lawn,
But only one mother the wide world over.
~George Cooper

8 months and still counting... ♥

we've been together for 8 months now...n i don't want it to ever end.. :)

our relationship still stays strong eventhough we've gone through a lot of hardship... 

long distance relationship is really really hard and it hurts a lot...seriously...

most people say that long distance relationship won't last long.. 

but if we want it to last long we'll try every way to make it last...

n yes honestly, i gave our relationship maximum 3 months long...

but i was proven wrong..n i'm loving every second of us being together... :) 

thanks for accepting me for who i am...thanks for tolerating with my annoying attitude, my mengade-ness, thanks for being so patience with me...

i'm sorry if i've ever hurt u in any ways...n if i do i didn't mean to...

i know i'm always mean towards u..hehe...but, i do love u...SOOOO MUCH...don't get angry okie... :p

happy 8th month anniversary sayang...I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH...n will always will... :D

 

 ♥

020211, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! :)

Happy Birthday to me! :D

I'm already 21...n i need to change to a better person with a better way of seeing things and thinking...like mama n ayah sed "maturity comes with responsibility"...will try to be more responsible this time... :)

this year's birthday was the best i've ever had...it wasn't a big n grand celebration...it was juz a simple n small gathering with my dearest friends and beloved boyfriend...(it was kinda surprise celebration for me actually) after all it's the thoughts that counts..it was a memory that i'll cherish till forever...n it was what i wished for my 21st birthday...thanks a lot to all my friends that had planned everything...i'm touched...hee.. :D

 

these are the birthday cards and presents that i got... :)

♥ 

 

and thanks to my boyfie for the present and his first made cupcakes/muffins..hee.. :D

♥

I really had the best birthday ever!! n thanks to all of them who made it so special.. :D

my wish came true...

♥ 

  

My Birthday's Wishlist

my wishlist for this year's birthday... :)

1. A return air ticket to any destination of my choice. ♥
2. A new watch ♥
3. A new phone (blackberry/Iphone) :D
4. A key pendant ♥
5. A perfume ♥
6. A car (optional...hee... :D)
7. A simple, sweet, memorable birthday celebration with my family, relatives, best friends, close friends, and of course my boyfriend. :) ♥

I'm craving for cupcakes...can i have cupcakes too for my birthday? hee.. :D ♥

 

 p/s: I know it's still to early to wish myself "Happy Birthday", but wth..hehe.. :)

brand new...

as all of u can see i'm no longer using my old blogspot link.. www.sara0290.blogspot.com
it has been changed to www.stories-unwritten-on-paper.blogspot.com
i juz feel like changing it coz i don't like the old blog...hahaha...dh bosan...(boleh x mcm tue.. :p)
i juz feel i need a few changes in my life including my blog since it's a brand new year now... :D
well..new blog, new resolutions, new friends but the old n true ones still stays in my life, new chapter in my love life, and a new beginning to a better me... :)

"The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique."

-Walt Disney-

happy new year ;) make plans.

First post for 2011...

i thought i would like to share something that is thoughtful for u bloggers... :)

Some things are beyond planning.
And life doesn't always turn out as planned.
You don't plan for a broken heart..
You don't plan for an autistic child.
You don't plan for spinsterhood.
You don't plan for a lump in your breast.
You plan to be young forever.
You plan to climb the corporate ladder.
You plan to be rich and powerful.
You plan to be acclaimed and successful.
You plan to conquer the universe.
You plan to fall in love - and be loved forever.
You don't plan to be sad.
You don't plan to be hurt.
You don't plan to be broke.
You don't plan to be betrayed.
You don't plan to be alone in this world.
You plan to be happy.
You don't plan to be shattered .

Sometimes if you work hard enough, you can get what you want.
But MOSTtimes, what you want and what you get are two different things.
We, mortals, plan.
But so does Allah (SWT) in the heavens.

Sometimes, it is difficult to understand Allah's plans especially when His plans are not in consonance with ours .
Often, when He sends us crisis, we turn to Him in anger.
True, we cannot choose what Allah wishes us to carry, but we can carry it with courage knowing that He will never abandon us nor send something we cannot cope with .

Sometimes, Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.
Sometimes, He breaks our heart to make us whole.
Sometimes, He allows pain so we can be stronger.
Sometimes, Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.
Sometimes, He allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.
And sometimes, Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything He gave us.

Make plans, but understand that we live by Allah's grace.
Although they plan, Allah also plans. And Allah is the Best of Planners.[Holy Qur'an 8:30]

-thanks to Intan for this beautiful and well said note.... - ♥